The roller coaster of emotion that has been the past couple of weeks since arriving in Moscow on Dec. 16th has taken another turn - a long, plunging, death defying drop!
It's the kind where your breath is taken away. When you feel you might loose your lunch.
I have discovered that Polina is not one of "The Six" that are spoken of. It seems that those are children whose parents have not only been through court, but whose 30 day waiting period is over prior to January 1st. There are far more than 6 families that expect to return in January to get their children...families who have already cleared court, but are not through the 30 day waiting period.
Why a 30 day waiting period? In case her biological parents come to get her. Her mother never even called to check on her welfare. I don't think she's coming to get her!
Let me say this. Communication is non-existent in this issue right now. Register with the State Department is all anyone has officially been told by anyone that I know. I know they don't want to tell us something and be wrong. But something, anything would be nice. Even if it is that they won't know anything until....... Could there be a light in the waiting?
I don't expect to hear anything until after January 8th. Do you know how far away that is? When you have to sometimes remember to breathe, it's a long way! Everything in Russia shuts down around New Year's. This year, they have 8 days of holiday after New Year's when EVERYTHING is closed. No one goes to work. And so, I don't expect anything can be done or figured out during that time.
I'm angry. I'm hurt. I'm sad.
I'm breathing. I'm resting in the promises of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. It's all I can do. It's the only peace and hope I have!