Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Death Would Be Better

I've always felt there was nothing worse than a parent having to bury their child. I don't think that anymore. What I'm about to write might sound morbid. If you read to the end, you might understand why it's not. 
Frankly, I'd rather bury my child than leave her in "the home for invalids" where she currently resides. Let that soak in for a moment...the home for invalids. 
You see, my daughter is 5 1/2 years old. She knows me as her Momma. She loves me and I love her. But she doesn't know the love I have for her as her mother.  She doesn't know unconditional love. In fact, she was told by her caregivers more than once that I wouldn't bring her home if she acted certain ways. She believed that. 
And now, after promising her I would be back for her in a month and I would bring her to the home I showed her in pictures to meet her brother and be a member of our family, I might not be able to. She might be left to believe that I didn't come get her because she spoke in a disrespectful tone. 
I might have to leave her in a Russian orphanage where she will never know the love of a family because of a "tit-for-tat" law that is going to President Putin's desk today.
I sat in a court hearing where I listened to the letter her mother wrote..."I refuse to care for my daughter" it said. "I refuse to take her home." Twice more, "I refuse."
Her only known relative said the same. And the letters from the local agency again rang out again with the word "refuse" in reference to Russian families interested in adoption. Documents from the baby house and the "home of invalids" both confirmed no one had ever visited her or called to check on her welfare. No one...except for us. 
"Why do you want to adopt a child with such massive needs," the judge asked numerous times. "Do you understand her profound disabilities?" "Don't you know that your life will not be easy? You will not be able to come home and relax!" "I know you say you understand, but I must ask again, are you sure you understand and are willing to care for her?" 
Yes judge, we understand. Yes, we want her. Yes, we know it will not be easy. Yes, we still want her.
 We understand that if we don't adopt her, with her needs, she will not be adopted into a Russian family and at her age, the chances of another American family choosing her dwindle daily. We know that when you read the list of disabilities, it sounds daunting, but she is a very capable child and has great potential to be a productive citizen if give the chance of a family and the care she can receive in America. Besides all of that, we love her and she is already our daughter in our hearts. I wear a necklace and a bracelet everyday with charms representing our son, and her, our daughter. 
And so, on Christmas Eve, the judge granted our adoption petition. Her birth record would be changed to show me as her mother, my husband as her father, and her name Polina Joy Skaggs. 
But we couldn't bring her home yet. There is a 30 day waiting period for all parties involved to change their mind...for that biological family that has never visited or called to check on her to protest. I have all confidence that's not going to happen. We will return to Russia on Jan. 28th and pick her up on the 29th. She will be an orphan no more, and never again referred to as an invalid. 
Or will she?
If Putin signs this law, it is unclear if they will allow our (and others') already approved adoption(s) to go through. 
We might have to leave her, with no explanation as to why we didn't come back for her - not that an explanation would matter. 
And while the thought of never holding my daughter again brings me pain, the agony I feel is in what that means for her. 
There's the simple basic things - she's never had a bath beyond a sponge and shower head.
There's the things you wish you could give her like taking her to the beach and to Disneyland. 
There's the medical care she will never get to reach her full potential. 
And then there's the daunting future. No love of a family. Even worse, wondering why her Momma and Papa never came back for her. 
Worse than that, it's an extremely slim chance she would ever come to know the love of Jesus. She will never know that she is not "in-valid," but that she is the creation of God himself, made in his image!
There would be no one to care for her beyond her childhood years. The Russian government graciously provides a room in a flat for orphans when they age out of the orphanage. But with the corruption in the country, most do not ever get that room. They live on the streets. 
Think for a moment of the harsh Moscow winter. My prayer beyond food would be that she could find 56 rubles (just under $2) a day to ride the Metro where she's protected from the elements. But even if she had the money, she couldn't get into the subway. There is no handicapped entrance. Just long stairways that require two people to take a stroller in & out. And so, as you might imagine, even someone without a disability can't survive long in that environment. 
So you see, it's not so morbid after all. Death, instead of all of that suffering, would really be grace. 
It would be grace for me not to wonder forever who is caring for her, what she is feeling, if she is suffering. 
More importantly, it  would be grace for her. She would enter into the kingdom of Heaven as a child to learn the love of her Heavenly Father and sing & dance with the angels in streets of gold - after all, she loves music. 
I have no control. I'm on the other side of the world and I can't hold and comfort my daughter as I wait to hear if we will forever be separated. I have no choice but to surrender all to Jesus. All I can do is pray - not just for her, but for all of the orphans - and hopefully bring awareness of the problem to the world. I do not , can not & will not ever understand the evils of this world. I can only pray and encourage Christians as the hands and feet of Jesus to be involved in the world's orphan crisis in some way - foster care, adoption, sponsorship, financial and/or prayer support of those doing these things. Let your heart be broken for what breaks His. Visit http://www.klove.com/music/artists/matthew-west/songs/my-own-little-world-lyrics.aspx and really think about those lyrics. 
In the meantime, I will pray, come Lord Jesus, come!


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    1. Kendra! I'm from Russia, my name is Evgenia Churinova, i have 3 my own kids.... i'm SO SORRY, that its happining, sorry for mistakes, if i did, English not my native languege!
      May be you write to m-r Putin? Here, in Russia, we all knows about 46 kids, who can lost their new parents, and we all know about yours story... TRY! TRY it for your Polina! Write and give your letter from Michael McFaul... and McCain... http://moscow.usembassy.gov/pr122812.html
      Kendra! TRY! I ASK YOU! and i cry with you.... its ALL WAS OUFULL.... they are murders, not people. If you need some help in Moscow - here my e-mail ptiza_2@mail.ru
      And foregive us... we cant protect our kids from Russian goverment... you can't imagine, what they do... here in small and big country closed even maternity wards, children's hospitals, in kindergartens and schools children are bullied terrible food. And we CAN'T protect kids... this is the official policy of the authorities against children. Not even orphans. In the town of Borisoglebsk mothers were forced to occupy a closed hospital. The nearest 130 km on the road on a machine without amenities. This is FOR MOTHERS who are in childbirth. Our government is afraid of the only international scandals. So give them this. And at least protect Polina. You can not imagine, how much of it was hypocrisy, lies and fear. Against honest people to hold such harassment, that the majority is afraid to speak. Be strong! I struggled for that in kindergartens children stopped spinning. Staged rallies, writing letters. Against my family was unleashed by the dirty company of bullying. It was even filmed two movies, humiliating, discrediting our family. We lost this battle, children continue to bite, they have an Allergy to poor-quality food. The main enemy of my government are children and women...

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  2. Dear Kendra, I'm praying with you and for you and your daughter. Can not describe what I feel after this decision of our Parliament, which we did not choose!
    I would be glad if there were enough Russian parents to accept all the orphans, and that the climate for invalids in my country were more comfortable.

    I really hope that you'll be able to bring your daughter home with you.

    May newborn Jesus bless you, your daughter and all orphans across the globe.

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  3. Dear Kendra, I'm praying with you and for you and your daughter. Can not describe what I feel after this decision of our Parliament, which we did not choose!
    I would be glad if there were enough Russian parents to accept all the orphans, and that the climate for invalids in my country were more comfortable.

    I really hope that you'll be able to bring your daughter home with you.

    May newborn Jesus bless you, your daughter and all orphans across the globe.

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  4. Dear Kendra, did you check any opportunities to maintain the connection with Polina, at least as a pen-friend - how do you feel about it?

    Terribly sorry for you guys. Let us pray for other couple - probably from another country or a well-off Russian family - would give her family. She is alive, and you are alive, and this fact is probably a hint that there is still hope. You WERE in Polina's life and she WAS in yours, no law can take that experience from you.

    Christa, a psychologist from Moscow, Russia

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  5. Wow! I am praying for you and that you will be allowed to bring her home the end of January that God over rules the government so she can come home to you. This story sure does touch my heart.

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  6. I have no words to describe how heart broken I am to read about all that is going on. I am so very sorry for your pain. I am praying that this law will not pass and your sweet princess will be home where she belongs soon. Sending love and prayers your way.

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  7. Dear Kendra, please know that many people from Russia are against all this insanity. I really hope your daughter will be with you. Please don't give up.

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  8. I am heart-broken at this law that Putin has already said he will sign,... truly sad how politics affects the most vulnerable. I have no words of comforts, this is a truly tragic situation. I pray God would change the heart of Putin to do the right thing.

    "The king's heart is a stream of water in the hand of the Lord; he turns it wherever he will." - Prov. 21

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    1. Mr. Pu has no heart I am afraid. This is bloody and evil dictator. Still hope you will join with your daughter soon.

      Anton

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  9. Dear Kendra-We have a daughter in Heaven with Jesus. Her middle name is "Joy." You are right - It is not the worst thing a parent can endure. Our sorrow is great but I am happy for her because I know that she is okay - beyond okay - she is with Jesus and nothing could be better. We also have a daughter adopted from Russia. We thank God for giving her to us. I will be praying for your family, already planned out by our sovereign God. Until Jan. 29th then - on our knees. ~S.Anderson

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  10. I am so very sorry to hear this. We have 2 adopted girls and it tears me up when I think about how the kids life hang in the balance of the government. Prayers for her and you and everyone else involved in this.

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  11. Dear Kendra, I am young Russian girl and maybe cannot understand you fully, but I am totally with you, and I hope that God will help you and Polina be together. I can't do anything, only pray, but I want you to know - you are not alone in this world.
    Siberia with you by heart.

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  12. Just felt to tell you that Jesus weeps with you, is hopeful with you, is tending to Polina through your prayers, tears, heartache. He is so wise, so able...and yet when these things take place, how can we not feel the wake of it in the depths of our being? Lord, you are a Just Judge, you are a Righteous King and your heart, without question, is to place the lonely in a family, YOUR family, forever. Every prayer of petition, I agree! Come quickly and rescue these ones whose cries come before you, day and night. You will give them justice because you are JUST! With persistance we plead our case, the case of the orphan, of the fatherless, of the oppressed, of the weak...throwing ourselves upon the mercy seat that you would act swiftly. If the hearts of kings are truly in your hands, give Putin a heart of flesh that he may become Russia's greatest advocate for justice and righteousness!!! May the nations REJOICE in a righteous ruler and restore joy, hope, peace in the hearts of your people in Russia!

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  13. This is one of those times when I am deeply ashamed of being Russian. This law is cruel beyond words. I am joining you in prayers for the orphans. - Jenia

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    1. +1 from Russia

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    2. I would like to answer this specific post, as well as to you Kendra and your family..First to Jenia, you should not be ashamed..Darkness is attacking our entire planet, and God only knows there's plenty of it in the US and our "leadership" as well. I am SO IMPRESSED at reading the encouraging words of you and the other Russian people, and apparent Christians, posting their support. One lesson here is that there are many GOOD PEOPLE in the world, and I feel very confident that Americans and Russians would be the closest of friends, if we really had a chance to know each other! Politics and the huge fences that have been put up, are preventing us from doing so. And then we have "media" or news, in both countries or globally, with their agendas of misinformation, who do their best to paint misleading pictures of our populations, in their attempts to foster hatred between us as they have for many years.. The bottom line, Godly people everywhere, have to stick together! If Russians and American believers, pray together, God may answer with a miracle in this case, for that precious little girl and the family that is so desperate to embrace her in their arms..These are trying times for our world, but we all need to take courage and hope in the darkness, and know that the light of salvation is coming soon! Kendra I prayed for you amd Polina w/tears streaming down my face. God has a plan, and I am praying that in your case and for this sweet little child, that it will be a plan that brings you together, and a ray of hope for us who pray for you..If for any reason, God's plan isn't for this to happen, as heart wrenching as that would be, at least you know that you will have eternity to spend with her, and God will take care of her for you, some way, some how, until then. I will remain hopeful though, that the miracle occurs, that God almight touches Putin's heart in this case and we will all soon read or hear great news that this family will be allowed to come together! Until then, I encourage everyone to keep praying, and God Bless the Russian and American prayer warriors, who have your back! Todd / Indiana, USA

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    3. Do not be ashamed to be Russian.

      Ashamed that govern us evil dwarfs.
      Inhibits powerlessness of ordinary people.

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  14. Kendra, great thank you for your mother love.
    Great thank you for your civil brave.
    Thank you for you and thousands of Americans who wants and can do the main action for Russian children - give them a family.
    Thanks from Russia!

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  15. I'm from Russia. I just want you to know that I'm with you. All the people from Russia are against this cruel stupid law!!!!!!! We're deeply ashamed of our government. I hope you'll be together with your daughter. I pray for you!!!!

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  16. Emre Eroglu - Natalia ErogluDecember 27, 2012 at 1:56 PM

    Hi, Kendra. i am living in Turkey. and my wife, Nata informed me about this site. there is a big tragedy. and with this law there will be many example like this. this law has to be change. How the government made this kind of law it is hard to believe. it is very dangerous for the future of Russia. i support you from Turkey. hope all will change, and all will be better !

    Best regards,

    Emre & Natalia

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  17. Please, be strong! Don't give up. The most of the Russians are with you. I wish you good luck and I'm sure your daughter will be with you.

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  18. Dear Kendra,

    As it was said above, please be aware how many people in Russia are outraged, disgusted, ashamed of this cruel and stupid legislation, especially since it was officially connected to the Magnitsky Act.

    There were many protests, but it doesn't seem to work...

    Let Polina be alive and let's pray she still won't lose a chance to be happy...
    Although I can't start to imagine how harsh it is now for you and for her. How stupidly cruel not to let at least for those kids and parents who already met each other to consummate adoption.

    Crying and praying with you.
    I personally know two American families which adopted girls from Russia, and they are adorable.

    Hugs and best wishes,
    Olga.

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  19. Hello Kendra, thank you a lot for everything you are doing. Thanks for trying to save a life and give love and for a small Russian girl.
    My prayers will be with you and your family.

    George.
    Seattle WA, Moscow Russia.

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  20. Dear Kendra! I'm praying with you. I was born in Russia, now living in New York. People who signed this law are heartless, they don't care about poor kids, they just care about their image and money. Do not give up! Your family is in my prayers!
    Irina

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  21. Only two questions to the American adoptive parents:
    1 . Why you don't want to give birth to the child?
    2 . Why you don't want to adopt the American child?

    Olga, Saint-Petersburg

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    1. Olga:

      I can't speak for Kendra, but I, too, am a US adoptive parent of two Russian children. To answer your questions: 1) many women have fertility issues that prevent them giving birth, or in my case, I am not married. After reading about the many Romanian orphans, my heart led me to adopt. 2) The adoption laws in our country are not perfect either. The "closed" adoption laws in Russia appeal to many US parents - as many US adoptions fail after the birth parent changes their mind.

      My son is from St Petersburg - it's a beautiful city.

      Amy, Michigan - USA

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    2. Dear Olga,
      I had 3 biological children when I met my Russian daughter while she was visiting our country. Prior to that experience, we had not even considered adoption. God put a love in my heart for this little girl that I cannot explain. I have been asked by others why we did not adopt an American child. My answer is always the same: I did not choose to adopt, and I did not choose my child. God did all of that, and He does not make mistakes. Had God brought an American child into our lives to adopt, we would have that child. God's plans are perfect. All children deserve love and a family, and it does not matter to me where they were born. Our daughter faces many physical, emotional, and psychological challenges, but we are walking with her through them all because we love her. I hope this helps you understand.

      Blessings from Ohio, U.S.,
      Holly

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    3. Sometimes better to keep silence, than to speak.
      I am Russian and I think that your questions were not cleaver.

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    4. That was not nice of you, Olga, indeed. The first question is something that you just don't ask if you are a polite grown-up, so either you have a lot of years ahead of you and hopefully will get an understanding of wright and wrong or you just have some problems, from my perspective. Nationality is not the main issue, child is a child afterall, and everyone needs love and attention, no matter where he/she was born.

      Dear Kendra, I hope that despite all the difficulties, you will succeed as children should not be a part of Politics.

      Russian citizen

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    5. Olga,

      And I've got only two questions to us, the Russians (well, I've got a lot more, but these two break my heart):
      1. Why so many parents in our country abandon their very own sons and daughters?..
      2. How came the rest of us allow these terrible orphanages to exist?..

      Kirill, Chelyabinsk

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    6. Olga, I have only two questions for you:
      1) Are you an idiot?
      2) If not,so why you ask such questions?

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    7. Please don't criticize Olga for asking these questions. They may not have been worded delicately (language translation difficulties, perhaps), but I think they were sincere, not meant to insult. They are valid questions, and I believe she asked out of genuine curiosity.

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    8. I'm sure that in fact Olga is a notorious "85-roubles Nashi's bot", please do not even pay attention to her words. I'm very grateful to all Americans who gave the best life for Russian orphans, because here they had no future.

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    9. Not every one of us has a brain. Oops. (Especially for you, Olga). In fact all that we do for each other in the country does not need the government, only the good will each of us.
      Kendra, please accept my sincere regret. Everything that happens to you, there shall be no one of the living.

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  22. Dear Kendra, let's hope for the best.

    I am a 50-year-old woman from Russia and I think that the members of our parliament must to be ashamed for their decision

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  23. I cried ready this very poignant post. My two youngest boys came to us through Russian adoption. They are my joy, my heart, my life. S is no 10 and was adopted at 20 months. It took 9 months from the first visit til our court date. At the time I didn't think ANYTHING could be worse. Less than a year later we returned to Russia, to the same baby home, to adopt H. He was just 8 months old, and the biological baby brother of S. As you understand, we spent a week with him, holding, playing with him, loving him, then returned home. As hard as that was, we had no idea that it would be FOUR years until we could finally bring him home. Four years of pain, uncertainty, and life in an overcrowded baby home. We missed him so much and made frequent trips to be with him. We went to court four times, filed TWO Russian Supreme court hearings and finally, on our fifth attempt, were successful. It has been almost four years since that happy day and my boys are so very different children. They are best friends and each other's strongest allies.

    I FEEL YOUR PAIN! I know that it was through God's grace alone that we were able to bring him home tot he United States. With him NOTHING is impossible and I will continue to pray for you and all the families caught up in this red tape. Mostly I pray for the children...innocent children!

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  24. hi! i met you once in moscow, i sold you flowers in our shop. you told me about purpose of your visit & show me Polina's picture. i was so impressed with this short dialog, i retold it to my family and friends. and i can't forget you & your case.
    of course, when our officials started this wild dishonorable company with this law, your family was first which i thought about. i never expected to meet your story in popular russian blog.
    it's very hard to speak words of support now. i just can be very shamed on our country to bring your family & maybe Polina's chance.
    i hope everything will be the best way
    best wishes to your family
    Natasha, Moscow

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  25. I wish you all the best.
    I am Russian American if you need any help with translations or something like that let me know.
    I'll be glad to help at no cost for you.
    deadbillybones@gmail.com

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  26. Is this a joke? Are you seriously wishing death upon this child if you can't have her? Woman, you are insane

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    1. I don't really think you understood her point. I do not want to offend men here or single people (women or men) but when there is no chances for a son or a daughter to be at peace, when an innocent baby has to suffer, it is such a pain to a mother that Death seems preferable. Besides, Kendra meant to say, i think, that what the Russian government is doing right now is practically the equivalent of killing Polina slowly and after a life of immense suffering, since Russia has not infrastructure or services in place for children and much less, adults, with special needs. She is not wishing this child dead. She feels that that might end up being the unavoidable result anyway.

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  27. My thoughts are with you. We were days away from adopting our second child from Kazakhstan almost three years ago when they shut down their program. The pain is unbarable when you have seen the hollow eyes of those who are "surviving" life dispite the institutions that house them. While you struggle through this time and wait for asnwers, hopefuly possitive ones, we will be praying and advocating for your little one.

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  28. I will be praying with you Kendra.

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  29. Dear Kendra,

    you can see that the law has been a shock to the Russian people as well. Best of luck to you, your family and Polina and heartfelt thanks to you for caring for her. I do hope it will work out some way or another. Where is a will, there is a way! May God be with you

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  30. Dear Kendra,

    you can see that the law has been a shock to the Russian people as well. Best of luck to you, your family and Polina and heartfelt thanks to you for caring for her. I do hope it will work out some way or another. Where is a will, there is a way! May God be with you

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  31. Dear Kendra,

    you can see that the law has been a shock to the Russian people as well. Best of luck to you, your family and Polina and heartfelt thanks to you for caring for her. I do hope it will work out some way or another. Where is a will, there is a way! May God be with you

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  32. Dear Kendra,

    you can see that the law has been a shock to the Russian people as well. Best of luck to you, your family and Polina and heartfelt thanks to you for caring for her. I do hope it will work out some way or another. Where is a will, there is a way! May God be with you

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  33. Dear Kendra,

    you can see that the law has been a shock to the Russian people as well. Best of luck to you, your family and Polina and heartfelt thanks to you for caring for her. I do hope it will work out some way or another. Where is a will, there is a way! May God be with you

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  34. Hello. I'm from Russia and you story was the last drop of grief and pain that torn my heart apart. The madness of this situation is ubelieveble and I still can't believe that its not a bad stuid joke.
    With sll my hope and trust I wish to unite with your girl, take her forever from this nazi sadist regime, that is called democratiс Russia.
    I beg you - do not give up. Please. There internetional courts, UNICEF, organizations, mass media. You should fight for her. Please..

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    1. I dont know about the lady who writes this blog we would love to keep going and will need be but this all cost so much money I dont know how long blog writer has been in her adoption but we have been in this for 2 year and we just went to court and supposed to pick our little one up next month too. WE are praying and fasting, that he will honar the judges decision in proceeding with these adoptions. WE are you all pray too. God is not finished yet. Dont give up pray and fast and believe God is BIGGER. PRaying for your country love your people have enjoyed our trips have been very blessed and we love our little boys he is awesome...

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  35. Kendra - my heart bleeds for you. Wishing and praying for a positive outcome and that Polina comes home to you.

    Amy, mama to 2 Russian beauties

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  36. Dear Kendra,
    I deeply empathize with what you're feeling now.
    I am a Russian citizen, living in St.Petersburg. I'm not a government official, I never voted for Putin and the party I voted for is not represented in the Duma, but still I feel the guilt and the shame for the disgrace falls on me too, on everyone of us here, and neither the nazist Government of my country, nor shameless members of the Russian parliament, nor my heartless compatriots, will apologize to you, I wish to apologize for myself and for them.
    I very much hope that the court's decision in your favor won't be reversed and your child will be lucky to get on the last train. I very much hope so and sincerely wish it. But if not, if she is to stay in the orphanage for some time - please, contact me at merzonl@gmail.com
    Which city is your child in? May be in St.Petersburg?
    If not - never mind, I will try to contact - via social networks, via my blog, may be I will think of something else - anyway, I will try to contact people in that city and make them aware of your child's situation. May be a foster care can be organized for her, or may be at least some good people can often come to see her, may be to take her out for weekends.
    We'll see what can be done. I ran into your letter just an hour agfo, so I don't have a specific plan yet, but somehow this situation touches me deeply and I want to be involved and to help if I can.

    Take care.

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  37. God is in control. I dont know if you are a believe or not but if you are than our faith is in God and not man. You dont know me and you may think how can she say this well I am one of the 46 too we leave the 19th to pick up our 2 year old 12lb son too. My faith is in the promises GOd has given me in the last 2 years of our adoption. I encourage you not to grow weary in well doing but to really pray and fast for your child and for the President God can turn his heart he did Pharaohs. GOd is the same today yesterday and tomorrow he still preforms modern day MIRACLEs.. http://petittzutaut.blogspot.com I am believing our baby will be home we have come so far and God will see us till the end. In Jesus NAME. Praying for you and for us.

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  38. when i read your strory, i realized how much you love you daughter, but she is not yet your daughter from documentary and official point of view. But your attention to her and your heart says - SHE IS MINE. It's the same with God. He loves us first no matter who we are, and in what status we r now toward Him. He loves us and calls us His beloved children. thank you, that your story opened my eyes! I pray that God help you and His name be glorifyed in this situation!

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  39. Dear Kendra,
    Your post is in my mind for two last days.Cannot stop crying for your daughter and you.I live now Ukraine, how I can help you? May I repost your message?Praying for you and your litlle girl.
    Natasha

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  40. Dear Kendra, I pray with you. Be strong, don't give up!

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  41. I'm afraid that that this law is a reality now - i've just read this in the news. :( It will become effective on January, 1st. But i really REALLY hope that they at least will allow to complete the current adoptions for you and other people like you.
    I'm ashamed that the people who wrote this law and allowed it to be signed are thought to speak from the name of all Russians, and from my name too.

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  42. These days I'm sorry I'm Russian. These kids have no chance in Russia. Orphanages here are awful, I know it well cause I work with orphans every summer and my family tried to adopt but it proved to be impossible in our case. Praying with all my heart for you and your little princess.

    Yula

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  43. Dear Kendra, hope nobody will ask the court to change their decision before 29th of Jan. New law was signed today, but new law couldn't change court decision automaticaly. Somebody should ask court for that. If nobody do this you will just leave Russia with your daughter. Praying it will be.

    Sergey.

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  44. "This is one of those times when I am deeply ashamed of being Russian. This law is cruel beyond words. I am joining you in prayers for the orphans. - Jenia"

    I can only agree to Jenia's comment.

    Kirill.

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  45. Russian kids don't need you, americans, so please calm down and born your own kids.

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    1. Are you an animal? There's a lot of Russians who tells they love Russia pretty much. They called themselves 'patriots' but they aren't. They try to show their love when they abuse other countries. They just can't love really. If you have love you don't need to show it you don't need to say bad of others. It's crystal clear. We all are people.

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    2. Apparently they DO, or the Russian 'mothers' who "born" them and then ABANDON them would still be taking care of them!

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    3. Carol, Orlando USA (adoptee)December 28, 2012 at 1:06 PM

      Dear "Anonymous" - you are a coward and dealing with your own anger from within. Sad to be so hateful, but there are unfortunately many hateful people on this planet like you.

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    4. Dont be a hating coward and speak from your real name. Obviously you are ashamed of your country. Your idiotic government. And mostly you are embarrased of your sorry ass self. For being so evil and jelous of people who are kind. Otherwise you would not be hiding your dumb comments behind anonymous. Calm down those people have big hearts. They will be kind to you and sorry for you too. . Kenda. We rusdian people are outraged and devasted by that heartless law. Many people were dusturbed by what this illegal government in russia did to our children. Many people in Russia will be willing to do everything possible to get those 46 out to their american families. This is the least we can do fir them. Fight with your heart. Dont give up. Stay strong. And thank you for sharing your feelings with the rest of the world! I can feel how you feel. Don't get into despair yet. Dont bury your daughter alive. She is alive. And there is always more than one way to resolve things

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    5. (Russian kids don't need you, americans, so please calm down and born your own kids)-this comment from russian bot,in Russia we told him "portyanka".He get moneys for this comment-85 rubley(over 3 dollars)."portyanka"-bots are spamming in russian blogs whom protests vs adoption ban,too.Adoption parents sorry for this shame and dont listen russian bots!

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  46. Putin have sign the "law of bastards" :(
    Very very hope this will not cancel your adoption procedure.
    Terrible is that there're hundreds and thousands of other 'Polinas' that will never meet a new parents like you.

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  47. Yes. Russian with you. Not all, but many. I hope that you will be with this child.

    Russia. Tambov.

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  48. Dear Kendra, please do not give up! Try to search help amongst American authorities, senators, etc. I hope, together you can breake this cold wall of heartlessness built by Putin and his slaves in Duma.

    I am very sorry, we could not stop them making this Herod's law.

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  49. Dear Kendra, this law and all those people who invented it are pure concentrated evil. There are a lot of people in Russia, counting me, who are ashamed and furious by this parliament and this president. Please do not give up. I live in Moscow - if you need anything here, please do not hesitate to contact me.
    My best regards,
    Natalia Tourdyeva

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  50. Through your senator pls initiate extension of the Magnitsky Act on deputies

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  51. I didn't know anyone "in process" until I read this..
    And now, my heart breaks again..If your adoption was signed, and the birth certificate and adoption decree are signed, is it possible that it will go through?
    I wrote a blog entry yesterday. I was really mad, mad at everyone involved..Take a look at it, and know that you are in my heart!
    http://www.swirlygirliez.blogspot.com/
    I wrote it not to hurt anyone, just to express my sadness and anger..
    I don't know what I would do without my girlz

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  52. Dear Kendra, the judge have already granted your adoption petition, I'am pretty sure the authorities will let you take Polina home. In any case this law is a real shame.... Don't give up !!

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  53. Dear Kendra.
    All I want to say is that you cannot give up now. And you have all the chance for happy end!
    The judge granted you adoption petition.
    This terrible law will step into force 01.01.2013 and must not touch the judge decisions already taken. Text of the law is not presented for review, but this is the general rule.
    In case of any misunderstanding from Russian orphanage you need to contact a Russian lawyer.
    I want to be involved and to help if I can.
    Be strong, don't give up!
    Take care.
    Alexandra
    a.m.komleva@rambler.ru

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  54. I wanna believe it'll be all right. So, there's a lot of conversations of it in social networks in Russia. We want not to have this law and try to prevent it. There're many people who still feel strong in this country and ready to deal with it. You know, sometimes it goes pretty badly but a miracle happens. There's an idea in Russian tales that something good is stronger than the evil stuff every time. Pretty simple, I know, but just that you need in right now. I hope... I believe... I'm sure the miracle will happen. God bless you, your family and your daughter. And He helps you, I'm sure, He will help!
    I'm ready to pray for you and I'll do. Hope it can make you better.
    Good luck to you!
    Gregory, Moscow

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  55. Death is, by far, not the worst thing EVER. There are lives so torturous, so destructive, so abusive and excruciating that death would be a welcome reprieve. Death is inevitable, after all. And if a life lived until that death arrives is all of the aforementioned, is that worth it?

    I hope, however, that LIFE - and a damned healthy and happy one - is what is in store for Polina. That you can bring her home so she has a chance to be with her parents and her brother. To know the life she deserves!

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  56. My heart is aching for you. Sending you so much strength and keeping you in my prayers.

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  57. My heart is breaking for you and your family right now. My husband and I are adopting through the Foster System here in the US so I know the emotions you're feeling (we had an adoption fall through the day of court). We will keep you all in our prayers that Polina gets to come home with you. Keep your faith.

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  58. Having adopted from Russia myself, I have walked that mile in your shoes. Our process took over 22 months due to the US and Russian governments bickering back and forth. It was only by the grace of God that we managed to get Methun and Zita home with us. I will be praying for you and Polina harder than you can imagine.

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  59. I am so sorry to read of this! Hoping something changes for the better. Best wishes for you and Polina.

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  60. Hey maybe if you become duel citizens that might be a way around the system. I really hope it all works out for you.

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  61. PRAYING for you! God will grant you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4). Know that all around the world Christians are praying for you and that God's will WILL be done.
    Megan-Foster Care Specialist, Detroit MI

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  62. Please do not give up on this little girl. I am praying for you and your family.

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  63. So The New Herod did it today...

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  64. Kendra, my heart aches for you and your family, most especially for little Polina. I have a daughter with Spina Bifida; I profoundly hope that Polina will have the care and options for her future that my daughter has had.

    I will be praying with all my heart for Polina, for you, your husband and son, and for the ruling powers in Russia to let this little girl come home to her family.

    Never give up. "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

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  65. I was so sorry to see this in the news this weekend. Six years ago, my husband & I were in the middle of an adoption. We were supposed to have gotten our son Dec 9 and due to political issues as well (in our case, in the US) we were not allowed to have him, so I understand the pain you (and others) are going through right now. Please know that I am praying for you and your daughter and hoping you will be allowed to bring her home.

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  66. Dear Kendra and Jason,

    I really hope everything will turn out to be alright and at least yours heartbreaking story will end well. (I've read there are dozens of children in the middle of the adoption process. This law is so cruel to these children - and their new parents - that I can't even find the words to describe my resentment of our lawmakers.)

    During the discussion of this outrageous law deputies said that it should only apply to adoptions that weren't completed in the court on January, 1st, so it's a good thing you've got a court approval for your adoption. (Unfortunately, the text of the law itself is somewhat ambiguous at that point and it's not clear how it will be applied.) Please, please don't despair; it looks like you're going to make it.

    Our hearts are with Polina and you. God bless you.

    -Kirill

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  67. What is wrong with trying to adopt an AMERICAN child? I don't get it. Really, like kids here in the States don't need love and affection? What a world selfish world we live in!

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    1. You are the one who is selfish anonymous! Go and adopt an American child if it bothers you so much. You people frustrate me and stop commenting on blogs if you are this heartless to not think about this little girl!!!

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    2. Dear Anonymous! All need in love. And it doesn't depend on country. And it's pretty nasty they try to brake this love for kids. It doesn't matter where kids find it. But they need to find, nothing more. If somebody is ready to help he's welcome. It doesn't matter what nationality he is.

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  68. I am so sorry to read your story on the ABC News website and my heart goes out to you and your family. I lost a Russian baby back in 2004-05 when a government social worker mistakenly included the child I had accepted and was preparing to travel to meet in a file she or he showed a Russian family after the date when I was supposed to be able to breathe that she was safely on the path to being my daughter. I had no recourse, and shortly thereafter, Russian adoptions came to a near halt due to some of the tragic stories in the news of U.S. adoptions gone bad. I was heartbroken because I'd had a previous country shut down also. I know this will be little consultation for you now, but in my devastation at the time, I almost gave up adoption. In the end, I started a third process in Ethiopia, and ended up having a smooth process that led me to bringing home my 6 month-old, healthy, beautiful daughter who has attached without incident and is an amazing soul. I believe now that she is the child I was meant to have, and all the pain and loss was part of waiting for her to be born and for me to find her. At the same time, I still think of Julia and wonder if she has a happy life in Russia. It must be terrible to know Polina is not is a very nice place - that is the painful part of all of this too. Knowing so many children will languish in loveless and inadequate orphanages. I am, again, so sorry.

    As an aside, be careful using her real name or yours in this blog. Sometimes, government officials in other countries look for blogs on adoption from their countries and I was always counseled not to post real names of photos in a blog for this reason.

    Michele

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  69. I'm currently in the process of adopting from South America. This news is breaking my heart. We're complete strangers and I wept for you today. I don't know how but I'm praying for you that somehow in someway this works out and you'll have your child home soon.
    Christina Michigan

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  70. I'm praying for you and your family that God will intercede in the heart of Putin and allow her to come home. Stay strong!!

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  71. Why don't you just move to Russia to be with that child?

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  72. Praying for you, your family and your sweet Polina.

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  73. Kendra, Both of my children were adopted as infants from Russia - one in 1996 and one in 2000. My heart breaks for you and your daughter. We will pray for all of you. I really believe that, since your adoption was finalized in court, they will allow her to come home. She is a beautiful little girl and she belongs in the arms of her mommy !

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  74. I am saddened and infuriated that the governments in these country's use the children as pawns. They are wanted by no one in Russia or some other country and yet they will not allow and adoption to go through so that a child can have a family and love and medical care. My own daughter is adopted form the US and could never imagine life without her.
    These government officials need to get off their high horses and not take out their person issues or anger at the US or some other country and do what is right, just, and best for the children. All children deserve to grow up in a loving home. As to the other issues. The government/orphanages need to be up front about the medical needs/issues of some of these children so that if there are some severe issues they are placed with the correct family that can handle difficult children.
    I wish you and your family the best and that someone in Russia comes to their senses and lets this little girl have a forever family.

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  75. A lot of religious blabbering and nothing much else. Such religious nutcases is another good reason why children from Russia shouldnt be adopted in US.

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  76. It is heartbreaking but why don't you temporarily take a small apt in Russia so you can care for Polina until it is all straightened out?

    Only one parent would have to be there, the other could stay in the US and hold down the fort.

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  77. So frustrated for you but glad your story is getting national coverage (saw it on yahoo.com). May Jesus Christ give you His insurpassable peace and may you bring your daughter home soon!!!

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  78. Dear Kendra,
    Go and see your local Congressman, petition him to move a resolution to repeal the Magnitsky Law.
    As soon as that law is repealed then the Russians, moved by Jesus, will lift their ban.
    May the power of Christ be with you,
    x

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    1. What you are doing here is exactly blackmailing people using kids, Mr. or Ms. Evil.
      In fact, this is exactly the true reason why the dishonourable putin and his accomplices from the parliament adopted this anti-kids law.
      I hope world leaders can express their indignation and contempt to the author and supporters of this cruel act, and that they will soon find a way to make it very clear.
      May the power of Christ be on you, the sooner, the better.

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    2. Unfortunately US Congress and US administration don't negotiate with terrorists and what Putin is doing is an act of terrorism.He holds Polina as a hostage.
      Kendra, there are couple of posts from Russian people which can give you a thought that Russians are stupid and heartless people. And they are not. They were so long tortured , robed , raped, misled and deceived that they are not able to react as normal people. Forgive them they don't know what they are doing

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  79. Kendra,
    My Heart and Deepest Prayers go out to you and your husband. My husband and I are in the process of adopting from South Korea, we don't know who our baby is yet, but I already love them, so I can more than relate to your pain right now. I wish with all my heart that maybe they will have heart and let you have your daughter.
    Lots of Love,
    Bri

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  80. Добрая женщина, простите нас! Нам самим очень стыдно за эти бесчеловечные законы! Сил, Вам и Бог в помощь!

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  81. Sorry for our president, but you know, we didn't choose him!
    Most of Russians are with you and kids, who'll be nothing in Russia. My government just killed all these children and we are upset. We don't know what to do, we don't know how we can change the situation. But can we?
    I want you to know that normal citizens are with you. Hope you'll be with Polina soon.
    Never give up!

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  82. My prayers with your family! As a birthmother, I understand the pain of a family that wants a child only to have those dreams dashed right before them. A child "born" into love will never know anything but love. Keep strong, for your family and daughter.

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  83. Whole Russia hate heartless mr.Poo and his corrupted and terroristic antihuman gang (aka russian parliament). Hope both will gone soon and You'll be able to share all Your love with Your beautiful baby! Keep love in heart, and don't give up - if all the good people from USA and Russia will join together - evil will be back to hell...

    With Love and Respect to Your Christian Heart!
    Roman

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  84. Kendra, on behalf of every thinking Russian, I have to apologize for the absolute terror that my government has signed off on.

    Please stay strong, I hope they will come round their senses.

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  85. Dear Kendra,

    Despite everything, every person in Russia (apart from those in our corrupted and ridiculous government) support you and all other families and kids who will lose the opportunity to unite & live happily together wherever they want & how they want. Nobody has the right to use children as a weapon in political wars. Children are out of the politics/arguments/self-assertion etc

    Russia is with you. We are deeply ashamed.

    Katia, 29, Moscow

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  86. I am ashamed of my country. And for bureaucrats idiots. I feel sorry for you ...

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  87. Dear Kendra,

    what is now happening in Russia is just disgusting. I am completely on your side.

    I've read today that an MP from the ruling party has proposed to make it possible for disabled kids to be adopted by the Americans. We cannot be sure about the future of this amendment, but he has already submitted it, so let's hope for the best.

    Anyway, this cannibalistic law won't last forever. It just can't.

    Please hold on.

    Kirill, Moscow.

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  88. Kendra, if I can be of help, please write to me at alex.kuchin@lycos.com. I live in St.-Pete, but travel to Moscow every now and then. Next time I will be there some time in the middle of January.
    If you want me to get anything to Polina, I will buy on my account, no problem.
    Alexey

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  89. Our goverment taking hostages to defend criminals. Our goverment are terrorists. It's shame to be russian, forgive us please. Keep a hope one day they will be defited and Polina gain freedome.
    Courage Kendra

    Vladimir

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  90. Dear Kendra, no words to express the pain and despair that the russian people feel about this terrible law. We will do everything we can to change this course of events. I cry with you. I'm sorry that we have allowed this to happen..

    Oxana. Moscow

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  91. I am deeply - deeply sad and infuriated at the same time. People like Putin and his acolytes cannot be considered as humans anymore. Total political and financial isolation should be imposed on them by whole civilized world. They are not better than Saddam, Gaddafi and Assad.

    Kendra, be strong and don't give up on your little angel. There are many good people who will try to help you and all unfortunate like you to reunite with their kids.

    Gennady. Vancouver, Canada

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  92. Dear Kendra, my thoughts with you and Polina! Don't give up! I love you, pray for you...my heart with you!

    Irina.

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  93. Dear Kendra !! I'm not sure that more words (of sympathy and consolation) can comfort you. I am crying right now....I had my own sad experience with adoptation attempt back in Russia. It was horrible, I didn't have strength to resist the system on my own. I left the country. The child stayed. I feel guilty and very sad. But now I realize we have to stand up, speak out, resist and defend the right cause and, most important, innocent children. Let the world know where the devil's representative resides and what he is capable of. Let's not surrender to sorrow and weakness. Hold on ! Don't loose faith!! God bless you and Polina

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  94. Dear Kendra and your Family,
    Thank you so much for being so kind and I am truly sorry about all this, it should never happen to anyone. I would like to get in touch by email if you wish. I am in Moscow now and will be going back to US next month. If there is any way I could help you to go visit Polina and tell her that she is not forgotten and try to comfort her in her own language, I could at least try to visit her for you if they let me, but I need some info from you. God Bless you and every child on this Planet.
    Alla. Moscow

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  95. Dear Kendra, we pray with you. Please do not think that this terrible law is accepted on behalf of the Russian people. We are terrified and suffer from this government. May God give you patience and love. With the hope that your daughter will be able to find a loving family, Anna Antonova, Moscow

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  96. http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=395659323855066&set=a.287321078022225.69487.287285068025826&type=1&relevant_count=1 This is Putin. actually yes(

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  97. Dear Kendra, please, be strong!!! I hope that your daughter will be with you! Pray with you. I try to believe that our goverment think again and cancel this terrible law. Dont know what to say...
    Elena Evstratova, Moscow

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  98. not true, if your documents have already been prepared and approved, you will not get under the new law. You can pick up your child.

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  99. Dear Kendra, It is hard to understand that cruel Kremlin's low agains kids. Please, be strong. You have a most people with heart and common sense supporting you and others like you.
    Svetlana Saitova (Russian), Surrey, Canada.

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  100. Dear Kendra, my heart bleeds for you and your little one. Let's hope for the best, let's not give up, may the God's blessing be with you. I'm sure you will win and you will give your daughter all the warmth of your wonderful heart. Gene Savitski, NYC.

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  101. Kendra I'm sorry to hear your story, but you know - by now I'm already suspecting that Lord Almighty has heard about Russia one time too many. After all Polina (as precious as she is for you) is one of thousands of children over there in dire straits, and after all it's supposedly a Christian country, with Russian clergy sending their prayers to the same point of destination where you send yours. Only interestingly enough they give their blessings to Mr. Putin - the very man who is responsible for the current situation with your Polina ( and countless other miseries in Russia too.) I don't think it will sit with Almighty too well for too long.:)
    I'll pray that the 46 hostages ( can't call these children anything else under the circumstances, sorry,) would be allowed to leave, but if not, ( we do have to take "no" sometimes for an answer, ) it will only speed up what's yet to come. Things will have to become much worse before they'll get any better. Judging by the unfolding situation, we are at the beginning of it all - it's going to be a bumpy ride. Don't lose your heart Kendra - stay strong and stay patient, my best wishes to you.

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  102. Dear Kendra,
    Each normal person would die by the end of this text.
    I'm russian and i feel terribly sorry and shame for all that pathetic rancor.
    I live in Moscow and if i can help somehow (i can visit Polina and send a message from you; and receive a message from her). I promise you, i'll do my best to make her happy even for a moment.
    If there is anything i can do, here is my mail: elina.amanullina@gmail.com
    skype: elina-chesh

    Sincerely yours
    Elina

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  103. Kendra,

    My husband and I are also on the verge of bringing home a precious child from Russia. We have tickets to travel on December 19th and bring our little boy home. Our hearts ache with you as we face the possibility of this not being a reality.
    I have been praying for all of the other families in this situation with us, and will now keep you specifically in prayer as well as Polina.
    I just keep resting in the promises of God, and the fact that He is bigger than this situation. Adoption was his idea and this children are precious to Him.

    Isa.49:25 " Thus says the Lord: "Even the captives of the mighty shall be taken away, and the prey of the terrible be delivered; For I will contend with him who contends with you, and I will save your children.”

    God will never leave us nor forsake us. I am choosing to believe that He will make a way.

    I can't help but think that this is how He desires for us to be each and every day.....in a place where we can rely only on Him. Where we are completely dependent on Him and waiting on Him....

    My email address is kap285@verizon.net if you'd like to contact me at any time...

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  104. Wishing that Polina will come to her Mama and Papa!!! I will pray for you guys!!!
    My heart goes out to that little girl!!!


    Lyudmila
    USA

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  105. My heart breaks for you and your husband. Keep faith, and know that God has a plan for this. Sending prayers and hope your way.

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  106. You have my sympathy Kendra.
    But if your love is so unconditional for Polina,
    have you considered yourself moving to Russia and live there ?
    This would really demonstrate your devotion for this poor child.

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      1. This will not help because Kendra will remain US citizen and will not be allowed to adopt.
      2. Moving to Russia without a job with family is quite difficult and will require enormous financial resources. English schooling is not availabale outside Moscow.

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    2. I suggest a different strategy. Petition your senator to extend Magnitsky law on Putin and Russian senators. They are terrorists and should treated as such.
      I am ashamed to be Russian.
      Leo. Moscow.

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  107. Kendra,most russians with your family. We are all support you and your husband

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  108. My heart aches for you and your daughter, Kendra.

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  109. While I empathize with you, my question is why go abroad to adopt a special needs child when there are so many here in the USA who need loving people like yourselves to adopt.

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    1. I'd guess because the adoption and foster parenting system here is broken and totally unfriendly to people that can raise children in a good, stable home. I have seen first hand how great parents lose their foster kids to the very poor birth parents, because the birthparents change their mind or have too much pride to do what's right for the kid. International adoptions are so much more permanent and less risky in terms of being undone by the foolish courts.

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  110. Dear Kendra,
    I have translated your post into Russian to help spread the word, also among those here in power.
    Hope very much for the best for Polina and your whole family.
    Sincerely,
    Stepan Dubovoy
    (Moscow)
    Please find the Russian text here:
    http://www.facebook.com/note.php?saved&&note_id=10200280347955970

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  111. I feel shame for my country. I hope you'll be able to give a better life to Polina. I live in the US now and every day I think about how many opportunities kids have here.

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  112. Dear Kendra,
    I have translated your post into Russian to help spread the word, also among those here in power.
    Hope very much for the best for Polina and your whole family.
    Sincerely,
    Stepan Dubovoy
    (Moscow)
    Please find and feel free to repost the Russian text here:
    http://www.facebook.com/note.php?saved&&note_id=10200280347955970

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  113. Dear Kendra!

    That's horrible law and I would never believe this can be even possible in our country. But it happened. It's such a huge shame... I still can't believe it. It hurts me to be Russian these days. I have no words to describe my feelings.

    I wish you be strong and don't give up. I've read that there are six American families who already passed all necessary procedures and they will be allowed to take their children from Russia. I hope your family is one of them.

    Anyway, so many poor little children will be hurt. It's unbelievable evil. I hope they all will burn in hell who made this freaking weird law to be real.

    Anatoliy, Russia.

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  114. Dear Kendra. I am very sorry that your desire is not fulfilled. I am ashamed for my country. I am ashamed of my president. I feel very sorry for all the officials who wrote and passed this stupid law. I hope that you still will achieve your goals and get your child. I am opposed to the adoption of this inhuman law. I signed the letter to the adoption of this law. I did not vote for this president and for this the State Duma. But my voice was not heard. Bring you m apologies and regret. God bless you.

    Andrew Sazanov Russia Penza

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  115. Kendra, to say death would be better is something I strongly disagree with. I feel the pain of your family and of those in the same, difficult situation. I have been blessed to have never lost a child. Have you known anyone that has? I have. I have no idea how they are able to live thier lives and function.
    This may not be what you want to hear.
    So long as your daughter is still alive, there is hope. To say such strong things will not be seen in a favorable light from Putin.
    Let's face it, the US and Russia have leaders that are pros at playing politics. Look what it has done for our contry.
    I hope for the best for you and your family. Don't ever give up. There's nothing that says you can't go back to Russia, is there? The media is doing something they haven't done in a long time, something good. Ride it as long as you can and it just might work.

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  116. Dear Kendra! I pray with you and I hope something would change to better one day. Don't miss hope! We hate those people who forbid kids nad parents to get together.

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  117. Kendra. Let me join all the kind words here. I really hope the court decision will stay in effect no matter what, and you and Polina get out of this stupid and cruel situation. I'm really ashamed for my country's government. Really sorry.

    Ilia, St.Petersburg Russia

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  118. Dear Kendra. I'm so ashamed for my country. Your words break off my heart. Forgive us for our powerlessness. Elena, Saint-Petersburg, Russia.

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  119. Frequently I wish I was not a citizien of such country, despite my friends who's here, language and culture I love. But since I am, I will speak against of these mad and inhuman laws and do my best for all the beautiful people like you two.

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  120. I offer you a simple solution. Renounce U.S. Citizenship and you can easily adopt a Russian girl.
    If you do not, then you say worthless.
    Please write about your decision, or I'll take you as a part of American propaganda.
    Thank you.
    My e-mail arentia@yandex.kz

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  121. Having read a post and having read comments me very much confused presence of huge number of the word "god" at comments of the American citizens.

    I am sure! Russian "the law on orphans" NOT the adequate answer on "the law magnitsky", but, USA climb long ago in affairs of other countries, from this it won't turn out anything good, calm down and engaged in affairs of your state.

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    1. and engaged in affairs of your state....
      from Russia. Evgeniy

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    2. You are not Russian. You are stupid.

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  122. Dear Kendra! I`m from Russia, and now I am ashamed of my country. Be strong, please. There are so many people in Russia, who against the law. But we are powerless. I hope and believe in a better.
    Yulia Pivneva from Siberia, Omsk.

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  123. I am praying for you! Our God is a big God! Children are close to his heart! Do not give up the fight! Pray and encourage your senator to get off his butt and stand up!

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  124. Dear Kendra. I am very sorry that your desire is not fulfilled.

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  125. Dear Kendra. We, the Russian people, are so sorry. Please forgive us. We did and will do your best to get another parliament and another president.
    Sorry.
    Maria, Moscow, Russia

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  126. Do not give up! Look for the way! Pray for you.

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  127. It's terrible. God bless you! All Russian people against the new law. It is very a shame to us with our government.

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  128. It is awful. God bless you! All Russian people against the new law. It is shame on us with our government.

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  129. Dear Kendra! I'm ashamed to be Russian. I'm opposed of this inhuman law! I signed the letter to the adoption of this law. And I'll go to the meeting against this inhuman law. I didn't vote for this president and for his pocket State Duma. But my voice wasn"t heard. Bring you my apologies and regret. Praying for you and Polina. Hope the Miracle will happen.

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  130. Dear Kendra, we will continue fighting the inhumaine law and you please do not give up. This anti-american law is a low blow by the crooks, who know only mean ways, who do not care about anyone but themselves. Government-propaganda-independent Russians are all against this horrifying law. I hope you will be reunited with Polina! Alexandra, Moscow

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  131. Dear Kendra, is very hard for you, you have to be tolerant and persistent. We love you and your daughter, all will be well. Mickle

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  132. Dear Kandra.
    I will pray for you and continue fighting!
    God bless you!
    Johanna, Moscow.
    I'm ashamed to be Russian.

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  133. Forgive us that we were not able to defend your right to ...
    Forgive them, they know not what they do

    Russian people
    /Orlov Ilya, Moscow/

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  134. Dear Kendra, please be strong and don't give up.

    We are fighting against crooks and thieves who are now in Russian parlament and president office. This law changed them to murderers and cannibals. But we will overcome, and I hope it will not take too long.

    Boris, Moscow, Russia

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  135. Dear Kendra,
    Putin is not eternal. I am sure you will get a chance to adopt Polina. Be strong.

    Andrey, Nizhny Novgorod, Russia

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  136. It's so sad, when illigal parlament and president decided for us how we should be connected with whole world. Why they can not leave our lifes in calm. Leave us the right to choose how we want to live.

    I'm really sorry for this accident. I hope you will be together.

    Alex, Russia, Moscow

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  137. heartbreaking
    praying for you and your little girl to be together
    and for our politicians to burn in hell or to live in orphanage - it's pretty much the same...

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  138. I hope the day will come and Mr.Putin with his party and all of these people who made this inhuman law (and not only this particular one) will be punished. I hope they will rot in prison. They should pay for what they are doing in the name of Russian Nation.
    With best regards,
    Russian citizen

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  139. Kendra,

    I am so ashamed and so sad that our government is using the most vulnerable, the most defenseless people to set a political score. It is dishonest and inhuman and ultimately unforgivable. No person I know is in favor of this horrific law.

    We are trying to fight these monsters who claim to speak in our name, and we will win.

    I am thinking of you and Polina and I am hoping it will work out, one way or another.

    Anya, Moscow

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  140. Dear Kendra! I'm so sorry
    We're tired of facking Putin and our government.
    Russian citizens don't support that "law".
    You have to believe that all will be good.
    I wish you not to be giving up and I hope that you will be with your child.
    Marat from Russia.

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  141. Dear Kendra,
    Thank you and many other american families who adopt russian kids because of their disability or other hard deseases... Kids who are left and not cared here... Kids whose the only chance to survive and live the full life is in the families of good americans! This political games take the most precious that is our children, as a currency... It is such a shame for Russia and the gov... SHAME on them!!!! We hope that you'll get Polina back home and we're sure that your love, just like any mother's love in this world, is much stronger than all these dirty politics...
    Russian mothers from Voronezh

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  142. Dear Kendra! please do not give up! Please be strong! Please go to European Court of Human Rights! this law is against Convention on Human Rights. Please fight for your girl and for other children in Russia!
    I'm really sorry for this situation (( praying for you and your little girl to be together.

    Tatiana, Moscow

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  143. I'm so sorry...Seems our Duma doesn't think at all making our kids suffer. In our news and TV shows they say^ "We don't want to sell our kids and let them become American soldiers"... Idiots!
    Hope you'll be together with your little girl.
    Thank you so much for taking care of Russian kids!
    Olga,
    Moscow

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  144. Dear Kendra, I am with all my heart with you, I will pray for you and your daughter...be strong and continue fighting for her

    Yana, Israel

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  145. Kendra!
    Don't worry! The days of Putin and his servants (I mean our authorities) come to the end. Soon everything will be alright in your family.
    Best regards,
    Andrey
    St. Petersburg, Russia

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  146. Дорогоя Кендра! Никогда нельзя опускать руки и никогда нельзя сдаваться! Полине очень нужна мама и надеюсь вы будете вместе!
    С Уважением, Елена.

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  147. I feel so much shame for my country, I can not stop crying. Be strong! Dina. Moscow

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  148. No worries! The mentioned law will take effect only on the 1st of January. If you pick up your daughter till then, everything will be A o K!

    Best wishes! Hope everything will work out just fine for you and your little girl!

    Alexander
    Moscow, Russia

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  149. Don't give up. The law contradicts many Russian laws and international conventions, Russia signed. So that most possibly it won't work. You might have to go to court again to prove your right to adopt a child but it will not have legal reasons to reject your claim.

    Yuri.
    St-Petersburg, Russia.

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  150. 2-3 year and Putin go to Kadafi, Сhaushesku, Miloshevich. Kendra and Polina be together.

    Sorry bad english, from Russia

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  151. Dear Kendra,
    I really hope for a miracle for you and your daughter.
    It just cannot be so awful, just cannot…

    What a shame to be Russian today :(

    Deeply sorry for our impotency and shiftlessness.
    Let the happiness be with you and your family in the nearest future.

    Best wishes,
    Olga, St.Petersburg, Russia

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  152. Praying for your daughter. She deserves a happy life filled with love.

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  153. Hi Kendra,
    I live in Russia. I am sorry and ashamed of this sutiation.
    I pray for you and your daughter.
    I hope you will be together!
    Sorry for our government and their unhumanistic acts.
    Sincerely,
    Renata

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  154. Thank you and forgive us.
    I'm sorry.
    I am very ashamed for the leadership of our country.
    Sergey,
    Moscow, Russia

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  155. It's truly our fault that this bunch of bandits still rule our country and do whatever awful thing comes to there sick minds. We have no excuse. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
    Ilya, citizen of Russia.

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  156. Dear Kendra! I can't imagine what you are feeling now, and to be honest i was not able even to read this post till the very end. So horrific the case. It's a pity that my country has neither force, nor wish to take care of all lonely children we have, but even the greater pain is that our children have lost their chance to live a normal FAMILY life. The sickening government has deprived them of that chance. I really don't like to say some pathetic words, but you should know, here in Russia, lots of people are fighting again Mr.Putins madness. So am I. We try as hard as possible, ans I m sure, one day, which come soon you will see you child.

    Nina,St.Petersburg

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  157. Dear Kendra,

    I know that million of my tears since i started to cry reading your letter isn't the best support to you. But may be my every minute pray can help you and Polina...I think millions of people all over the world are with you and Polina ...Wie'l continue our every second pray till the last day, till the Jan 28/29th and further id needed...

    All my life I was proud to be russian, to be part of the country with great history&culture, with enigma of russian soun soul...

    But meantime I am so ashamed of our governmentd and so sorry about everything they do against their country and human rights...

    Dear Kendra, thank you for your kind heart and all eforts you do.

    All together we'll continue to everything possible and impossible to make you & Polina happy!!!

    Svetlana, St.Petersburg, Russia

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  158. I'm with you with all my soul.
    Please, forgive us...
    So sad...
    No words to discribe..
    Konstantin, Rostov-on-Don, Russia.

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  159. Dear Kendra! I cried reading your post..... I do pray for you and for your daughter, for a miracle to happen. Like you I do believe in Christ with all my heart and I KNOW he is among us and is providing care for us. He knows the ways we don't know and I DO believe in the miracle for you to love your daughter forever and take her home in the States where you can take care of her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Anastacia, France

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  160. and I totally agree with what Andrey from St. Petersburg said that the days of this particular goverment are over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do not believe what the govermental law says, believe what the biblical law says. Courage! you will be so much blessed by our Lord!!!!!

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  161. Dear Kendra, we pray together with you, to you and your daughter were together. Putin's regime and his bloodsuckers is not eternal. Soon he will come to an end! And you can be with your daughter. God be with you! Michael from Russia.

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  162. Fully agree with Andrey. Down with a tyrants!

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